"We waited in vain for the arrival of the sixth day--that day to me has not arrived--to the Swede, never did arrive. Thenceforward, we were enshrouded in pitchy darkness, so that we could not have seen an object tat twenty paces from the ship."
My fear is to be the Swede, to have lost control of my circumstances, to be caught off guard and unprepared for change, unprepared for chance. Often times, this is my approach with trusting Christ and what He is doing. It is interesting that someone announced this behavior of mine last night to me, and it left me in awe. "Samantha, you hope too much and never trust at all." It caught me off guard and I had no idea what my friend was trying to say: "Hoping is like closing your eyes and wishing for a pony to be there when you open them. Trusting is knowing that when you do, the pony will be there."
With Christ, there is not a dark abyss, but rather it is a blinding light, hindering your ability to function--a total loss of control. "What she is not, I can easily perceive; what she is, I fear it is impossible to say." I can easily say what my God is not, but what He is...I cannot comprehend.
...I completely lost where I was going to go with this, and I am afraid I have run out of time. After all, I have rehearsal.
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You made me smile. Rehearsal. So true. :)
ReplyDeleteAnyway... You and I talked about this some after lunch yesterday, and I agree with you. Sometimes I fear the unknown future, but often it's more the fear of being caught unprepared for what the unknown brings. I like what your friend said, and I think sometimes I approach trust in the same way... just hoping, not really trusting. Trusting requires surrender, whereas hope is something we can think about distantly, without giving up anything or becoming vulnerable in the process. With hope you can retain doubt, but when you trust you have to believe with your whole heart.