more works of love

Works of Love.

This is one of the readings I’ve actually enjoyed…

And I will try my very best to form complete thoughts. I’m relatively scatter brained as it is and my roommate is blaring music right now… she’s also singing to me and it’s beautiful but distracting.(It's her 19th birthday and she's a "grown woman!")

Alright, I was a big fan of the idea of testing. Testing faith, testing love. Kierkegaard says that “testing is always related to possibility” and he goes on to say that if you ask God to test your faith then you’re basically calling yourself out on lacking faith, because if you had faith you wouldn’t want to be tested on your faith and to be tested actually prevents you from attaining faith. Well that’s interesting to me, and when I read that I had that inner voice like “daaaang”. So to need to test faith or test love is really just proving yourself to be uncertain of both. I suppose.

“…who is the stronger, the one who says ‘If you will not love me, then I will hate you,’ or the one who says. ‘If you hate me, I will still continue to love you’?” According to Kierkegaard spontaneous love is both love and hate. Well that’s just interesting, that love could be both love and hate. It makes sense to me. In order to hate someone, you have to have loved them first. I mean for the most part. I don’t think that logic can apply to every scenario. There’s not much meat to my thoughts on that, I just legitimately thought it was interesting. His idea’s on jealousy are pretty intriguing to me too. He says that “jealousy loves as it is loved”, which if I understand it right makes sense to an extent. Jealousy is a pretty selfish emotion, and you can really only be as jealous as you are loved or in loved. Or as much as you believe you are in love. Right?

Well Kierkegaard is hard for me to follow… but I’m trying really hard.