Flowers on a Grave

"... I was neither
Living nor dead, and I knew nothing,
Looking into the heart of light, the silence.
Od' und leer das meer." (Waste and empty is the sea)

How do spell "AAAARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!" You can ask Amanda, I just let out a cry of stress!
I'm in a place right now where I literally feel neither alive or dead and that everything I once knew no longer holds any truth. Would you call this place a waste land? Sounds good! It's like looking into an abyss, then looking back at God and asking, "Are you sure about this...?!" Yet trusting Him to guide your steps even when you can't see two steps in front of your feet. When you feel to numb to feel alive, but keep walking anyway, He gently directs you along the path He has laid out for your life. Look towards the heart of His light, and in the silence you will hear His soft, still voice. 

"That corpse you planted last year in your garden,
Has it begun to sprout? Will it bloom this year?
Or has the sudden frost disturbed its bed?" 

The entire poem has recurring themes of life versus death and drowning versus drought, but also life that emerges from death. How does life feed off of something devoid of life? Like flowers blooming on top of a grave, does Eliot intend to say that even in death there is always hope,  and that in order for new life to begin a part of you has to die?

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