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In the last two classes we spent a good bit of time talking about this point of excitement.
Today we spent a little more time on the other side of the hill; the descent. We talked about this side being a gradual event. First with denial, then desparation to try and climb back to that moment. I believe that as soon as you hit that high point, the first knock down is sudden, and probably the worst blow. To me, the realization of never being able to reach that high point again is what sparks this desparation. It comes to the point that we see it's going to be a long way down, that it does not get any better, and that there is no light creeping through the hole in the cave we fell back into.
p.s meghan j
I know what he is talking about with this ecstatic union--we've all experienced it--but I feel like it isn't as hopeless. Is it because I know it all too well that it doesn't effect me as much anymore? Perhaps it is not that we should try to end it all right after our highest moment, but we should submit to the inevitable descent. We should 'go back into the cave.' Instead of fighting it to stay at the top, we should acquiesce our fall. Maybe it's the fight and not the fall itself that is so bad.
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